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oh boy i haven't updated in a few days, sorry about that.
let's seeeee i don't remember what i've been doing lately but the furthest back i can remember is thursday, so let's start there. umm i stayed after to finish up my research paper and then when i was done i met up with danielle, fele, & jenna. we talked till like 4:30 and then i took the bus home. uhhh around 5ish danielle came and picked me up & we went to go get fele at the school. we went out to eat and then back to the commmons for jobs/dresses. so good thing i didn't get a dress because it turns out i can't go to prom. i'm so so so bummed out about it, i've been looking forward to it for SO long & i can't go because it's IRONICALLY the same weekened that i have to go arizona to be a sponser for my cousin's confirmation. it sucks, i wanna do both and i'd cancel the az thing but i already bought my tickets. it just sucks that both can't work out. haha oh well :( i don't really wanna talk about that anymore i sorta just got over it. but anyways on friday i went home with danielle and then we went to pick up fele, there was an accident on the quickway so we sat in traffic for so long. BLEW SOME SERIOUS COCKKK. but afterwards we decided to go see a movie. we got lost in newburg. and i mean newBURG omg scary shit haha but we finally got out and made our way to destinta where we met some hot russian boys & saw silent hill. let me warn you now, worst movie ever do not waste your time, money, breath, gas, or energy to go see it. it suckeddd. me fele & dan laughed more than we jumped. thennnnn afterwards danielle dropped me off home. saturday i did nothing cuz dan was punished for coming home too late haha. but sunday i did make an appearance at the HOLLOOOOOOW! (bec's house) i love it there haha. i stayed till today (wednesday, yeah yeah our parents don't care i've been asked a million times this week) haha but i had so much fun there i always do. we basically watched movies, we saw red eye, cry_wolf, phantom of the opera...and other shit. they were all so good i reccomend them all! things have kinda been shitty this week and like i guess i really can't complain because it's little things that bug me but none the less, they're making me upset. & it just sucks. so my mom knew that i've really been feeling depressed today, so when i came home she was like erica look at this so i came over to her and she pulled up an e-mail and it was like... TICKET CONFIRMATION & at first i thought it was for az and i was like huh? and she scrolled down at it was like MAY 6 MEADOWLANDS and i knew it was for bamboozle and i just started hysterically crying. i was sooo overwhelmed and i've been holding the cry in for so long, like little things that pile up i forget about them and throw them off to the side and i never show my emotions about it. and then finally something happened and it all came down on me. i couldn't even say thank you i was sobbing and shaking, it was such a good cry though. even when things seem like they never get better, they always do. and i love my mom. if you're reading this, i want you to be honest...how many of your moms would do that for you? how many of your moms even KNOW what bamboozle is? yeah that's right i bet not even half of you. i just love her so much i couldn't ask for a better mom, yeah we get on eachothers nerves but what relationship doesn't that happen in? i'm just so excited and anxious...i haven't felt so many things at once. it feels good to finally start feeling happy again, i really really really hope this lasts..
Oh and ps, for the past couple of 11:11s i've been wishing for anything to come and make me happy. and it finally came true. i can't wait for bamboozle.
:) :)
peace & ♥!!
la bella vita.
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